*Sentimental*

I swear I am just a nocturnal human being. There's just something about the night that ignites a spark in my brain that allows me to speak freely. I feel like I can say whatever I want here. To me, it's like discovering a deserted cave where you can openly say whatever comes to mind. It's beautiful. Anyways, today I found my old laptop & I quickly charged it to see if it still turned on. It did. I began to click on random things like iTunes just to see what music I used to listen to. But after that, I looked through my old pictures & I sat there, staring at the screen. It was a reminiscing moment. As I clicked on through, the emotions were evident. I started thinking to myself, " Thank god for pictures." I probably wouldn't remember as much without them. I also thought to myself, " Memories are powerful." How they can make you relive that moment, is remarkable. Soon I felt a slight pain in my chest & an unsettling feeling in my belly like my body knew something & was trying to tell me. Telling me that it was you. That no matter what, you could never really be gone. Telling me that I could not wish you away & made it clear that I still needed you. Yes, needed you & loved you. It was like trying to find something I knew I lost. Today. A day of nostalgia.