Thursday, January 23, 2014
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
POLYVORE!!!
So I just made a Polyvore & I made my first outfit. I think it's pretty nice. Check it out:
I would totally wear this outfit to a fancy date or just any special event. I think it's classy look. Anyways, Good night! (:
I would totally wear this outfit to a fancy date or just any special event. I think it's classy look. Anyways, Good night! (:
Monday, January 20, 2014
Teenwolf, Gifts, & memories... ❤
So I literally can't wait for teen wolf tonight. Hopefully as the show continues, maybe Styles & Lydia will get together. They're just so cute together! I also can't wait to to see what happens with Scott & Kira. They also look cute together! I am just obsessed with this show! It's everything in one show. Teen wolf is beyond addicting. It's perfect! Teen wolf rocks!
I guess you can call me lazy cause I've been laying on my bed all day. My mom came home a few hours ago and she bought me some cute stuff. <3
Omgeeee! I recently got new eyelashes in the mail. I absolutely love them. I took some pictures. Here are a few:
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So those are a couple pictures that I took on Saturday. & finally my cousin Jelenny (from Michigan) sent me some pictures. I immediately began to tear up. I just miss my dad so much. Here are the pictures:
I guess you can call me lazy cause I've been laying on my bed all day. My mom came home a few hours ago and she bought me some cute stuff. <3
Omgeeee! I recently got new eyelashes in the mail. I absolutely love them. I took some pictures. Here are a few:
So those are a couple pictures that I took on Saturday. & finally my cousin Jelenny (from Michigan) sent me some pictures. I immediately began to tear up. I just miss my dad so much. Here are the pictures:
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THINGS I WANTED TO SAY BUT NEVER DID
You know what I hate more than anything? I absolutely hate fake people. They don't give two shits about you! It's as if their whole life mission is to know you so they can ruin your life. I don't understand them. What pisses me off even more is when your nice to fake people & they continue to try to destroy you. You know what's wrong with fake people? They have serious issues. Either it's something like "insecurity issues" or "jealously issues." The list goes on & on. They don't really trust anyone but themselves & everyday they put on an act. So you might be asking, who the hell am I talking about? I could be talking about anyone right now. But there's one person that sticks out. Her name? Yes, it's a girl. No surprise huh? Let's say that the girl's name is Sierra. I think Sierra is fake. I am not the only one that thinks this. There are a lot of people that agree with me 100%. Now don't look at me like I'm the bad guy. I literally didn't do anything. This all started when I went to Wilkes. I thought it was gonna be so fun having two roommates. I was ready to meet new people & experience the college life. But when I look back at it now, I just shake my head. I'm so happy that I'm not at Wilkes because it wasn't so good. Here's what really happen:
I guess it started when me & Julie noticed that Sierra would say things like," I'm not pretty or beautiful. I'm fat... etc." & we would always tell her ," Hey, don't say that. Your beautiful. Your body is fine." We were trying to make her feel better but after a while of her constantly saying the same things, we kind of gave up. Then me & Julie noticed how boy crazy she was. I'm not talkin a little boy crazy. I mean a lot! It was like non stop. Everyday she talked about a black nigga that was cute. We get it. Your in college, there's cute guys.. but damn, shut up already. It's not all about boys all the time. Then I found out that Sierra would talk mad shit about me when I wasn't around. Now any other girl would've confronted Sierra & punched this bitch. But I'm not like that. No, I'm not a pussy, I'm smart. I don't resolve my problems by fighting. So anyways, Sierra would always talk shit about me & I never did anything to her. What pissed me off was that she told Angel to not like me because I wasn't over my "ex Taaj." There are two things wrong with what she said. First of all, Taaj was never my ex. Yes, he did ask me out through text. But I never considered it dating cause we never saw each other (except when Abel died) & we didn't talk that much. Honestly, I think Taaj just asked me out because he was desperate. Secondly, at the time that I was getting to know Angel, I was starting to have feelings for him but I would talk about Taaj sometimes because I was mad at the fact that I wasted my time liking someone that wasn't really ready for a real commitment. So overall, it wasn't any of Sierra's business to embarrass me like that & potentially ruin the relationship that I had with Angel. So when I found out about that, I didn't say anything. I just forgave & forgot. Well, your probably saying," Hey Pam, If you forgave & forgot, then why are you writing about it now?'' Well, my friend, sometimes enough anger can make you unforget.
My schedule during my first semester at Wilkes was okay. I had two free days to do whatever I wanted. So I would spend it sleeping, doing homework, & other stuff. Sometimes Sierra would suggest going to the gym or go explore our surroundings. When we walked to explore, we actually found a Dominican restaurant 20 minutes or so from our college. We went inside & we both ordered our food. We waited & our food was ready. Sierra looks in her purse, looks up with a sad face. " I didn't bring money. Can you please pay for me? I WILL PAY YOU BACK." Did everyone read that? She said, " I will pay you back." I'ma nice person. I'm not greedy. So I said okay. I paid for her food ( which by the way was like $15) My food was less then $10. So we eventually walked back home to our room & to this day she hasn't paid me back. But the story does not end there. There has been other times where Sierra " doesn't have enough money or any at all" She puts on this sad face & wait's for you to say the magical words. " Don't worry, I'll pay for you." When someone says, "Don't worry, I'll pay for you" it actually means, "Hey, I don't mean to sound rude. But you better pay me the fuck back bitch." Plain & simple. Another time we went to dollar general, & she asked me for money again & since I'm a fucking bank now, I gave her what she needed. But she still never paid me back. I mean, just put yourself in my position. Would you do what I did? Most of you would probably say no. But I didn't. Your welcome Sierra.
There were many times where Julie, Sierra, & I would be bored in our room. Sometimes me & Julie would play pranks on Sierra & she would get really mad. But when she did it to us, we just ignored it. It was like we were the grown-ups & she was the little child. There was one time that I was walking with Sierra somewhere & she stopped to say hi to Gabby. After a long hug goodbye, we continued walking. Sierra said," Gabby has a crush on me. It's kinda weird." I say," Ohh I see.." Am I that stupid Sierra? Did you not think that I knew you maybe you had a crush on Gabby too? I mean, I know you had a history of liking girls back in high school. Who knows if that shit went away.. You see, the thing about Sierra that is easily read about her is that she loves attention. She likes it when you call her beautiful & compliment her. Because right away she'll say, " Nah, I'm ugly & fat." Just so you can compliment her again. That's how she worked. The funniest thing about it is that she has this lame life story so people can feel bad for her. " I used to cut myself & I was depressed. No one liked me... blah, blah, blah" Same shit, different day. The things that makes me mad is that Sierra acts all nice & stuff. Makes you feel like she can be your best friend. & then she stabs you right in the back. For example, one time I went on Facebook & was scrolling through my newsfeed. One time, I read Taaj's status. I started shaking my head cause the boy doesn't make sense sometimes. Like if your gonna take your time to actually write a status, do us all a favor, & write correctly. So anyways, I was like, " Taaj soundin mad illiterate right now." I didn't mean it like he can't read or write. I meant it like write correctly. So anyways, at the same time that I said that, Sierra was already messaging Taaj on Facebook & telling him that I don't stop talking about him & that I called him illiterate. Now I didn't know she messaged him until the next day when Taaj texted me saying, " So I'm illiterate now?" I was completely shocked. Sierra was sitting right across from me & I told her what Taaj texted me. She acted as if she didn't know anything. "Only you & Julie heard when I said that." But she said, " Well I didn't tell him." I was so mad. I absolutely knew that she told him. Julie would never rat me out on that little thing. She was lying right in front of my face & she was damn good at it. So I played it off & said, "Ehh, I don't care what he says" But secretly, my plan was to go to the room after my last class & sneak into Sierra's laptop while she was in class & find out the truth for myself. I accomplished my goal. I ran to the room after my class, got into her laptop & went on her Facebook. Now I thought Sierra was gonna erase the message but she didn't. So I read the messages between her & Taaj & my heart literally dropped. I couldn't feel it for a second. I just really couldn't believe she would actually do something like that.
So I closed her laptop. Made sure everything was back in place. I was shocked. Julie was even more in shock. So later, Julie goes to the library & I stay in the room. I was pacing back and forth wondering how I was gonna play it out. Then my cousin Genesis called & I was just so angry, I began to rant. Genesis couldn't believe it either. Anyways, while I was on the phone with Gen, I looked through the peephole & someone was covering it. I automatically knew it was Sierra. I mean how obvious can you be? So since I knew she was listening I decided to have a little fun. I began yelling on the phone with Gen, being all dramatic & what not. I was like, " I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE ARE SO MEAN TO ME. I. DON'T. DO. SHIT!" Minutes later when I looked at through the peephole again, she was gone. I was happy because now she knew that I knew. But she didn't know that I knew she was there. So now she probably felt guilty in a way. Anyways, yesterday I went to New Jersey because my mother's cousin's mother died. So we went over there to read some stuff from the bible & sing some songs. After we did all of that, everybody started eating & the little kids were watching " Sam & Cat" so I decided I would send everyone a snapchat of me doing my Ariana Grande impression. Sierra snapchats me back & says , " Shut the fuck up." so playfully I say," Shut the hell up." & randomly she says," We all know you want dick." & " Angel has a small dick." So I begin laughing because I literally didn't do anything to her at all & she consistently continues to attack me for no reason. So I just didn't really snap chat her back after that I got really pissed because she has serious issues & then she wonders why she has no friends. I'll tell you why. Because your fake. How can anyone trust you? I really never wanna see her again. I don't think anyone would put up with any of this. I wish she could get a taste of her own medicine but whatever. But anyways, I hope this made you see how fake people can be. It's a crazy world out there & you need to watch who your talking to nowadays cause anyone can stab you right in the back.
You know what I hate more than anything? I absolutely hate fake people. They don't give two shits about you! It's as if their whole life mission is to know you so they can ruin your life. I don't understand them. What pisses me off even more is when your nice to fake people & they continue to try to destroy you. You know what's wrong with fake people? They have serious issues. Either it's something like "insecurity issues" or "jealously issues." The list goes on & on. They don't really trust anyone but themselves & everyday they put on an act. So you might be asking, who the hell am I talking about? I could be talking about anyone right now. But there's one person that sticks out. Her name? Yes, it's a girl. No surprise huh? Let's say that the girl's name is Sierra. I think Sierra is fake. I am not the only one that thinks this. There are a lot of people that agree with me 100%. Now don't look at me like I'm the bad guy. I literally didn't do anything. This all started when I went to Wilkes. I thought it was gonna be so fun having two roommates. I was ready to meet new people & experience the college life. But when I look back at it now, I just shake my head. I'm so happy that I'm not at Wilkes because it wasn't so good. Here's what really happen:
I guess it started when me & Julie noticed that Sierra would say things like," I'm not pretty or beautiful. I'm fat... etc." & we would always tell her ," Hey, don't say that. Your beautiful. Your body is fine." We were trying to make her feel better but after a while of her constantly saying the same things, we kind of gave up. Then me & Julie noticed how boy crazy she was. I'm not talkin a little boy crazy. I mean a lot! It was like non stop. Everyday she talked about a black nigga that was cute. We get it. Your in college, there's cute guys.. but damn, shut up already. It's not all about boys all the time. Then I found out that Sierra would talk mad shit about me when I wasn't around. Now any other girl would've confronted Sierra & punched this bitch. But I'm not like that. No, I'm not a pussy, I'm smart. I don't resolve my problems by fighting. So anyways, Sierra would always talk shit about me & I never did anything to her. What pissed me off was that she told Angel to not like me because I wasn't over my "ex Taaj." There are two things wrong with what she said. First of all, Taaj was never my ex. Yes, he did ask me out through text. But I never considered it dating cause we never saw each other (except when Abel died) & we didn't talk that much. Honestly, I think Taaj just asked me out because he was desperate. Secondly, at the time that I was getting to know Angel, I was starting to have feelings for him but I would talk about Taaj sometimes because I was mad at the fact that I wasted my time liking someone that wasn't really ready for a real commitment. So overall, it wasn't any of Sierra's business to embarrass me like that & potentially ruin the relationship that I had with Angel. So when I found out about that, I didn't say anything. I just forgave & forgot. Well, your probably saying," Hey Pam, If you forgave & forgot, then why are you writing about it now?'' Well, my friend, sometimes enough anger can make you unforget.
My schedule during my first semester at Wilkes was okay. I had two free days to do whatever I wanted. So I would spend it sleeping, doing homework, & other stuff. Sometimes Sierra would suggest going to the gym or go explore our surroundings. When we walked to explore, we actually found a Dominican restaurant 20 minutes or so from our college. We went inside & we both ordered our food. We waited & our food was ready. Sierra looks in her purse, looks up with a sad face. " I didn't bring money. Can you please pay for me? I WILL PAY YOU BACK." Did everyone read that? She said, " I will pay you back." I'ma nice person. I'm not greedy. So I said okay. I paid for her food ( which by the way was like $15) My food was less then $10. So we eventually walked back home to our room & to this day she hasn't paid me back. But the story does not end there. There has been other times where Sierra " doesn't have enough money or any at all" She puts on this sad face & wait's for you to say the magical words. " Don't worry, I'll pay for you." When someone says, "Don't worry, I'll pay for you" it actually means, "Hey, I don't mean to sound rude. But you better pay me the fuck back bitch." Plain & simple. Another time we went to dollar general, & she asked me for money again & since I'm a fucking bank now, I gave her what she needed. But she still never paid me back. I mean, just put yourself in my position. Would you do what I did? Most of you would probably say no. But I didn't. Your welcome Sierra.
There were many times where Julie, Sierra, & I would be bored in our room. Sometimes me & Julie would play pranks on Sierra & she would get really mad. But when she did it to us, we just ignored it. It was like we were the grown-ups & she was the little child. There was one time that I was walking with Sierra somewhere & she stopped to say hi to Gabby. After a long hug goodbye, we continued walking. Sierra said," Gabby has a crush on me. It's kinda weird." I say," Ohh I see.." Am I that stupid Sierra? Did you not think that I knew you maybe you had a crush on Gabby too? I mean, I know you had a history of liking girls back in high school. Who knows if that shit went away.. You see, the thing about Sierra that is easily read about her is that she loves attention. She likes it when you call her beautiful & compliment her. Because right away she'll say, " Nah, I'm ugly & fat." Just so you can compliment her again. That's how she worked. The funniest thing about it is that she has this lame life story so people can feel bad for her. " I used to cut myself & I was depressed. No one liked me... blah, blah, blah" Same shit, different day. The things that makes me mad is that Sierra acts all nice & stuff. Makes you feel like she can be your best friend. & then she stabs you right in the back. For example, one time I went on Facebook & was scrolling through my newsfeed. One time, I read Taaj's status. I started shaking my head cause the boy doesn't make sense sometimes. Like if your gonna take your time to actually write a status, do us all a favor, & write correctly. So anyways, I was like, " Taaj soundin mad illiterate right now." I didn't mean it like he can't read or write. I meant it like write correctly. So anyways, at the same time that I said that, Sierra was already messaging Taaj on Facebook & telling him that I don't stop talking about him & that I called him illiterate. Now I didn't know she messaged him until the next day when Taaj texted me saying, " So I'm illiterate now?" I was completely shocked. Sierra was sitting right across from me & I told her what Taaj texted me. She acted as if she didn't know anything. "Only you & Julie heard when I said that." But she said, " Well I didn't tell him." I was so mad. I absolutely knew that she told him. Julie would never rat me out on that little thing. She was lying right in front of my face & she was damn good at it. So I played it off & said, "Ehh, I don't care what he says" But secretly, my plan was to go to the room after my last class & sneak into Sierra's laptop while she was in class & find out the truth for myself. I accomplished my goal. I ran to the room after my class, got into her laptop & went on her Facebook. Now I thought Sierra was gonna erase the message but she didn't. So I read the messages between her & Taaj & my heart literally dropped. I couldn't feel it for a second. I just really couldn't believe she would actually do something like that.
So I closed her laptop. Made sure everything was back in place. I was shocked. Julie was even more in shock. So later, Julie goes to the library & I stay in the room. I was pacing back and forth wondering how I was gonna play it out. Then my cousin Genesis called & I was just so angry, I began to rant. Genesis couldn't believe it either. Anyways, while I was on the phone with Gen, I looked through the peephole & someone was covering it. I automatically knew it was Sierra. I mean how obvious can you be? So since I knew she was listening I decided to have a little fun. I began yelling on the phone with Gen, being all dramatic & what not. I was like, " I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE ARE SO MEAN TO ME. I. DON'T. DO. SHIT!" Minutes later when I looked at through the peephole again, she was gone. I was happy because now she knew that I knew. But she didn't know that I knew she was there. So now she probably felt guilty in a way. Anyways, yesterday I went to New Jersey because my mother's cousin's mother died. So we went over there to read some stuff from the bible & sing some songs. After we did all of that, everybody started eating & the little kids were watching " Sam & Cat" so I decided I would send everyone a snapchat of me doing my Ariana Grande impression. Sierra snapchats me back & says , " Shut the fuck up." so playfully I say," Shut the hell up." & randomly she says," We all know you want dick." & " Angel has a small dick." So I begin laughing because I literally didn't do anything to her at all & she consistently continues to attack me for no reason. So I just didn't really snap chat her back after that I got really pissed because she has serious issues & then she wonders why she has no friends. I'll tell you why. Because your fake. How can anyone trust you? I really never wanna see her again. I don't think anyone would put up with any of this. I wish she could get a taste of her own medicine but whatever. But anyways, I hope this made you see how fake people can be. It's a crazy world out there & you need to watch who your talking to nowadays cause anyone can stab you right in the back.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
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I MISS HIM & I THINK I'M GOING CRAZY...
It's literally been a month since I've actually been face-to-face to Angel & I miss like crazy. Sometimes I wish I could magically appear at his front door just to see his expression. He would not even expect that. I can picture it now....
- Angel opened the door & his eyes widened. His jaw dropped & his heart skipped a beat.
"Hi Angel." I smiled.
" Hey." He replied. Angel began to smile & eyes twinkled a little. The way he looked made me feel delirious. He moved in closer while opening his arms. I had waited for this moment for a long time. It was finally here, standing in front of me. I opened my arms as well & embraced his hug. I rested my head on his shoulder. I missed him. I missed his scent. I was glad to be around him again. He hugged me tighter as I rubbed his back.
" I missed you so much Pam." He whispered in my ear.
I couldn't express how much I missed him too. I never wanted to experience that again.
" I missed you too." I kissed his neck.
He finally looked at me, grabbed my face to pull me closer to his lips. We locked lips & it felt like we had just kissed the day before. The butterflies in my stomach fluttered around. I felt his smile as we kissed. He was happy & so was I.-
I keep daydreaming these things & it makes me want him even more. I just know Angel is the one for me. Every night we talk & I fall deeper & deeper to caring for him. I can just tell were gonna be together for a long time. I just hope I don't mess anything up along the way. I care about him too much. I wish he was here so I could cuddle with him & kiss him all night.
It's literally been a month since I've actually been face-to-face to Angel & I miss like crazy. Sometimes I wish I could magically appear at his front door just to see his expression. He would not even expect that. I can picture it now....
- Angel opened the door & his eyes widened. His jaw dropped & his heart skipped a beat.
"Hi Angel." I smiled.
" Hey." He replied. Angel began to smile & eyes twinkled a little. The way he looked made me feel delirious. He moved in closer while opening his arms. I had waited for this moment for a long time. It was finally here, standing in front of me. I opened my arms as well & embraced his hug. I rested my head on his shoulder. I missed him. I missed his scent. I was glad to be around him again. He hugged me tighter as I rubbed his back.
" I missed you so much Pam." He whispered in my ear.
I couldn't express how much I missed him too. I never wanted to experience that again.
" I missed you too." I kissed his neck.
He finally looked at me, grabbed my face to pull me closer to his lips. We locked lips & it felt like we had just kissed the day before. The butterflies in my stomach fluttered around. I felt his smile as we kissed. He was happy & so was I.-
I keep daydreaming these things & it makes me want him even more. I just know Angel is the one for me. Every night we talk & I fall deeper & deeper to caring for him. I can just tell were gonna be together for a long time. I just hope I don't mess anything up along the way. I care about him too much. I wish he was here so I could cuddle with him & kiss him all night.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
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So last night, I was on the phone with my boyfriend & he wanted me to get a pen and paper & brainstorm some ideas that we could do if I go to West Chester. We came up with 25 things. It's so cute! Here's the list:
1. Tour of Philly.
2. See a scary movie together at the movies.
3. Go to an amusement park ( park, mini golf, etc.)
4. Be taught how to swim by Angel.
5. Go to a rave.
6. Go to big FYE in Philly with Angel.
7. Take pictures & make scrapbook.
8. Go shopping!
9. Bake cupcake & brownies together.
10. Go camping/hiking.
11. Make a mix together.
12. Cook with Angel's grandma.
13. Go to a wrestling even together.
14. Win a pool game together.
15. Play board games.
16. Go to a spa together.
17. Snuggle & watch movies all day.
18. Go to the arcade & play a competition game. (Dave N' Buster's)
19. Have dinner in Olive Garden.
20. Go bowling.
21. Play volleyball.
22. Make a book titled "50 things I like about you."
23. Go to a museum.
24. Go to church together.
25. Visit a bakery.
Hopefully If I get accepted into West Chester, we could complete these goals. It would suck if I didn't get accepted. It would be like false hope. I just pray.
Thursday, January 9, 2014
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Cleaning, Demons, & Memories
Today my day consisted of (mostly) cleaning. I really hate cleaning but for some reason, if I'm listening to music, I have no problem with cleaning anything. So I put Pandora on & cleaned everything my mother told me to clean the day before. I started with the kitchen then moved to scrubbing the dirt off the stairs, & finished off with sweeping and mopping the first floor. It was fine. It only took me about 5-6 hours to be done _-
After wasting my energy cleaning for hours, I got bored so I just went on Netflix & started watching Family Guy. I watched about 10 episodes & then my mother came home. Yup, most of my day today was very boring. But it's been like that ever since I came back. Anyways, I was pretty worried today because Angel didn't text me yesterday. I mean, I know we shouldn't talk EVERYDAY but I just miss him & plus, I like hearing him talk. So anyways, I text him & I get even more worried cause he texts me back hours later. I really don't know but I OVERTHINK a lot. Like sometimes I try not to but I just do. I always think, "He must not miss me." or "What if he doesn't like me anymore?" I know, these are crazy things to even think about but I just think about it randomly.Once I start thinking these things, there's no stopping it.
Anyways, Angel calls me later on & we start talking. I love hearing him talk. I really don't know why. He could be going on & on about wrestling & I wouldn't even be bothered by it. Then he tells me about Skyler and how he's seeing some sort of grim reaper demon shit. It's crazy. Literally, if I was in Skyler's position I would probably shit my pants. I've never really seen anything like that. I can only imagine how Skyler must feel sleeping in his own house.
I get relieved when I talk to Angel because sooner or later he tells me how much he misses me & how he can't wait to hold me & kiss me. I love when he says it. It sounds real when he says it. Like it's gonna happen really soon. I probably have the cheesiest smile on my face when he says it. But it's adorable. It's crazy how it's only been 4 months. I feel like it happened so fast. But I'm ready to be in a committed relationship with him. I don't wanna hurt him or cheat on him because he deserves better than that & I plan to make him happy.
Today my day consisted of (mostly) cleaning. I really hate cleaning but for some reason, if I'm listening to music, I have no problem with cleaning anything. So I put Pandora on & cleaned everything my mother told me to clean the day before. I started with the kitchen then moved to scrubbing the dirt off the stairs, & finished off with sweeping and mopping the first floor. It was fine. It only took me about 5-6 hours to be done _-
After wasting my energy cleaning for hours, I got bored so I just went on Netflix & started watching Family Guy. I watched about 10 episodes & then my mother came home. Yup, most of my day today was very boring. But it's been like that ever since I came back. Anyways, I was pretty worried today because Angel didn't text me yesterday. I mean, I know we shouldn't talk EVERYDAY but I just miss him & plus, I like hearing him talk. So anyways, I text him & I get even more worried cause he texts me back hours later. I really don't know but I OVERTHINK a lot. Like sometimes I try not to but I just do. I always think, "He must not miss me." or "What if he doesn't like me anymore?" I know, these are crazy things to even think about but I just think about it randomly.Once I start thinking these things, there's no stopping it.
Anyways, Angel calls me later on & we start talking. I love hearing him talk. I really don't know why. He could be going on & on about wrestling & I wouldn't even be bothered by it. Then he tells me about Skyler and how he's seeing some sort of grim reaper demon shit. It's crazy. Literally, if I was in Skyler's position I would probably shit my pants. I've never really seen anything like that. I can only imagine how Skyler must feel sleeping in his own house.
I get relieved when I talk to Angel because sooner or later he tells me how much he misses me & how he can't wait to hold me & kiss me. I love when he says it. It sounds real when he says it. Like it's gonna happen really soon. I probably have the cheesiest smile on my face when he says it. But it's adorable. It's crazy how it's only been 4 months. I feel like it happened so fast. But I'm ready to be in a committed relationship with him. I don't wanna hurt him or cheat on him because he deserves better than that & I plan to make him happy.
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
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Dear Self,
Well since I don't start school for a couple more weeks I've decided that I want to write little journals on here. I could write the journals in my actual diary but since I'm so lazy & I always have my laptop; it could just be much more easier writing it here. Well, where do I start? That's the question. For one thing it's the year 2014 & I just hope and pray that it turns out better than 2013. I have to be very honest right now, the summer of 2013 was literally the worst summer of my life. I don't think I will ever forget it. So much things happened all at the same time that I couldn't handle it. It was difficult. But anyways, I really do hope that 2014 is filled with love & happiness. I can't stress enough how badly I want to get accepted into West Chester University. It would change my life so much. I know that I could probably get better grades at West Chester because it's a state school. It should be easier ( or so I've heard.) But other than that, my relationship with Angel will grow stronger. I've been with him for four months now. (Longer than my first relationship. It's sad lol.) But I'm happy because Angel is so different. He treats me differently. He says things that so many girls would love to hear. I'm so lucky to have him in my life. If I get accepted to West Chester, I will be so excited to experience more things with Angel. I wanna meet his family & get along with them. I want to explore Philly with him. I think that would be fun & interesting. Anyways, today I haven't done much other than lay on bed, eat, & watch "The Carrie Diaries." I really like that show! I guess the show influenced me to start this journal thing lol. I don't know why but I'm really craving ice cream & sunflower seeds so badly right now. But sadly I can't. There's something called "my period" who doesn't agree with me eating those things. I know, I shouldn't even mention my "you know what" but ehh... it's life. I really want to talk to Angel right now but I don't wanna bother him. So I'll just wait until he calls me.. Hopefully he calls me soon. Anyways, I would like to end this little journal & future little journals with a picture (preferably from tumblr.) that speaks to me. I don't know, seems kinda poetic in a way but I'm just doing it because I want a little color on my journals lol. Okay, byeeeeeeee <3 :)
Well since I don't start school for a couple more weeks I've decided that I want to write little journals on here. I could write the journals in my actual diary but since I'm so lazy & I always have my laptop; it could just be much more easier writing it here. Well, where do I start? That's the question. For one thing it's the year 2014 & I just hope and pray that it turns out better than 2013. I have to be very honest right now, the summer of 2013 was literally the worst summer of my life. I don't think I will ever forget it. So much things happened all at the same time that I couldn't handle it. It was difficult. But anyways, I really do hope that 2014 is filled with love & happiness. I can't stress enough how badly I want to get accepted into West Chester University. It would change my life so much. I know that I could probably get better grades at West Chester because it's a state school. It should be easier ( or so I've heard.) But other than that, my relationship with Angel will grow stronger. I've been with him for four months now. (Longer than my first relationship. It's sad lol.) But I'm happy because Angel is so different. He treats me differently. He says things that so many girls would love to hear. I'm so lucky to have him in my life. If I get accepted to West Chester, I will be so excited to experience more things with Angel. I wanna meet his family & get along with them. I want to explore Philly with him. I think that would be fun & interesting. Anyways, today I haven't done much other than lay on bed, eat, & watch "The Carrie Diaries." I really like that show! I guess the show influenced me to start this journal thing lol. I don't know why but I'm really craving ice cream & sunflower seeds so badly right now. But sadly I can't. There's something called "my period" who doesn't agree with me eating those things. I know, I shouldn't even mention my "you know what" but ehh... it's life. I really want to talk to Angel right now but I don't wanna bother him. So I'll just wait until he calls me.. Hopefully he calls me soon. Anyways, I would like to end this little journal & future little journals with a picture (preferably from tumblr.) that speaks to me. I don't know, seems kinda poetic in a way but I'm just doing it because I want a little color on my journals lol. Okay, byeeeeeeee <3 :)
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