You Only Hear What You Like

Hello fellow readers! As you already know, I love writing about my random thoughts at night. I guess tonight I got my inspiration when I noticed it was officially my cousin Genesis's birthday & I texted her, " Happy birthday." I swear, I get my inspiration from any little thing. *Munches down on a pizza* " Oooh,  maybe I should write something tonight on my blog!" I'm so weird but that's how my brain works I guess.  Throughout these several weeks, I've been traveling to different places & I love it! It's been fun but honestly it's been more of a distraction for me which I'm okay with. Without all these trips, I'd probably just be home thinking about the day I found out my father died or thinking about how stressful things are going to be since school begins in less than a month or thinking about how my opinions as a female aren't valued or considered. Yeah, who wants to think about that? I feel like as I grow older, I see the world more clearer. Instead of assuming the worst in people, I stop & ask why.  What was their motive? People don't do things for no reason. As I approach the new semester, it feels like I have all the time in the world to think about how my influences effect others. When in reality I don't have much time at all. What I want to get across is that I'm different & not many people understand that. I mean, there was this guy who basically thought I was pretty but never spoke to me because he thought I was mean. I guess my resting bitch face is to blame. There's this other guy that is trying to be best friends with my mom because he likes me but is afraid to speak with me after I shared some of my thoughts about drinking and smoking hookah. I feel like nowadays people just don't understand. It's about character. It's about listening to someone else's thoughts and say, "Do I agree with this person?" "Do I like how this person thinks?" But it's never about that. Nowadays it seems like everyone is yearning for some kind of emotional connection & they are so quick to teach what they want to say. My problem is that nobody is really listening.