"Do you like me or not? smhh"

Is this a stupid question? Do I  like you or not?... Nigga yes I do! I freaking like you so much that I don't listen to any of family members advice when they say to "not fall for you." I like you so much that it literally kills me that I have to be stuck here every freaking day wondering and imagining things about us. It just pisses me off because I've literally answered this question like a million times. & what pisses me off even more is that I feel like... no wait! scratch that. I KNOW that you only text me when your fucking bored.That's some fucked up shit. Cause I know for a fact that I text you because I want to and because I actually miss you. I'm so fucking sorrry that I cant leave my house and when I do it's because I'm doing something important. So sorry that I'm not like other girls in the streets. Cause I actually have responsibilities. I just feel so stressed about everything right now. You, college, getting a job, money, everything is just pissing me off. I wish it could be easier. & my mind It's .... It's just so fucked up that I keep thinking that your not even worth it. Like your just gonna be bored & try to find some other girl to hang out with. Cause you only text me when your bored. & it seems like you don't care. Cause darling... if you cared. If you honestly honestly cared, you would put forth the effort. Don't look at me like I'm the "bad guy."