Lost A Loved One

 Yesterday (6-15-13) my cousin Abel Deluna passed away. It brings pain into my heart because I literally saw you the day before you died & I just get so sad every time I think about it. Abel, I know a lot of times I would annoy you but it was only because i loved seeing you smile and hearing you laugh. Damn poly I miss you so much. It doesn't feel real. I keep thinking that you'll come back to life somehow and everyone will be happy and praise god. I honestly wish you never went to that pool party. I know how much you wanted to go to that. I would give anything just to see smile and talk again. I get even sadder because all of the seniors don't see what I see. They don't see the pain and tears that come out of your mother's eyes. She has lost so many men in her life and now she lost her youngest baby boy. I never would have thought I would cry for you this much. I swear my heart broke into a million pieces when I saw them take you out of that ambulance.  The blood, the plastic tubes, everything just made me go weak in the knees. I can't get the image out of my head. Don't even get me started on last night. I didn't sleep anything & I know nobody else could sleep either, thinking of you. We all truly miss you poly. You will always be in our hearts. R.I.P Abel Deluna